Que Sera, Sera

Since my last post, I have had a near-endless To Do list to follow up that has miraculously appeared with my re-awakened inspiration. My days are now filled with a new enthusiasm to excersize and be healthier, my work life has had an adrenaline injection, my evenings home are always too short now that I have new hobbies and things to pass time with.

For hours I have browsed for online shops for running gear (one of these new ventures), entertaining tips and recipes (the new season begs for casual dinner parties), and the most influential change: Sex and the City season 6 was dusted off and watched again. Tears have spilled, smiles have cracked, fists have punched the air, the boyfriend has been forced into stand-by mode to hug me back happy.

And it doesn’t stop there: next week, the 12th of June, I will also celebrate my 21st birthday. My little sister is coming over from Holland to celebrate this with me, my boyfriend has planned me a surprise birthday party, and I will have five heavenly days off work to enjoy the (hopefully, great) summer weather.

The things I would like to do over the next few weeks would be: 1. go home and see my family, 2. make a family tree, 3. gather old pictures of me and family (to show my boyfriend and friends here), 4. bring new fire into old friendships.

That’s one of the things I dislike about this whole moving-to-a-different-country thing. I’ve not only given up a fabulous life, but I’ve also lost contact with a lot of great people. I feel like I’ve lost really good friends and an array of experiences that bear no relevance in this new life, because there seem to be very little people that can relate to the lifestyle I led.

My life was drenched with pleasure, in a way that some people might consider it to be far from grown up, but hey, I considered myself a student, and ‘we’ do not do ‘grown up’ – yet. I worked a job I loved, for very little money, I lived in a fantastic room in a house close to the city centre, I studied art and I studied International Business and Management. In my free time you could find me at gigs or in the pub, or I would be promoting bands and venues, practising photography, web design or writing free reviews or articles to create a name for myself. My holidays to Belgium and London were far from extravagant, but always fun and definitely something to look forward to.

Now, these things seem to have passed, and I seem left with fractions of memories, pictures and videos, emotions and quotes, that I share with no one but my laptop. The people in the picture are now leading their own lives, geographically closer than they’ve ever been, but ever so far away.

The upside to this story is, obviously, the new experiences, the new friends, the new family I gained. I’ve grown up so much in the last year and 9 months – I’m in a full time job, live in a beautiful apartment with my beautiful, successful and smart boyfriend, my first attempt to get a driving license is coming up and for the first time since my move, I feel confident enough within myself, and also proud, that I have made the right decision moving here.

Luckily, we are blessed with the Internet, the medium that enables me to have most of the things I had when I was still in my old house. Via Facebook, Hyves and MySpace I can still chat with the people I used to chat with 2 years ago, via Skype I can call my sister and speak with and see my family. It’s not as great as the real thing, but it has shown me how important it is to have a firm home base. Something to fall back to.

My mum used to sing Doris Day’s Que Sera, Sera to me and my sister.. Hearing that song reminds me of seeing her sat down in our living room, in the corner near the heating, reading one of her 800+ page books with a cup of coffee. It’s one of the best memories I have from being young. Knowing I have made the right decision has given me the freedom to reminisce without feeling guilty. Good times 🙂

xx Chrisje

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    • George Francis
    • June 5th, 2010

    I loved the view from those windows 🙂
    xx

  1. Ach meisje, ik ben zo trots op je!
    En wat leuk, die Berghemseweg-foto! Ik kreeg er spontaan zo’n ‘warm and fuzzy-feeling’ van! En eind van de week ben je alweer jarig…. Ik zit me net te bedenken, wij kennen elkaar ook alweer een jaar of drie he? Wauw, wat gaat die tijd enorm snel!
    Ik ben heel benieuwd hoe die rijlessen je gaan bevallen! Heel stom hoor, maar ondanks dat ik al mijn rijbewijzen heb, ben ik too chicken om in Engeland te rijden. Ik zie alle mogelijke rampscenario’s al voor me als ik me bedenk dat ik links moet rijden en de hele wereld andersom lijkt.
    Ik hoop oprecht dat mijn financiele situatie dit jaar nog een beetje mag verbeteren zodat ik jouw kant op kan komen want ik heb er ontzettend de balen van dat er steeds weer iets tussen komt wat mijn vers opgebouwde reserves weer opvreet. Zelfs mijn vakantiegeld kan ik helaas niet aan leuke dingen en vakantie opmaken, het zal weer op gaan aan rekeningen. Goody… Maar, net wat je zegt, gelukkig hebben we in deze eeuw het internet! Je zit misschien kilometers ver weg van hier, maar toch kan ik met je praten. En dan is er nog de post. Ik vind het leuk als ik je afentoe iets leuks kan sturen! Ik hoop dat de Kip-in-zak uit de oven jullie goed was bevallen, of ben je er nog niet aan toe gekomen?

    Heel veel liefs uit Heesch,

    Claudje

    • Cynthia
    • August 15th, 2010

    I feel the same way about living in a different country — I left behind some really amazing, inspiring friends but I realize that it’s really important to keep those connections while I’m abroad. They know me the best and they keep me honest!

    • vakantiehuis
    • February 13th, 2011

    Leuke site!. Er zijn nog weinig goede sites over dit onderwerp te vinden.
    Ben blij met jullie toevoeging!
    Ik kan helaas geen bookmark aanmaken naar chrisjewrites.wordpress.com in Firefox. 😦 Weten jullie hoe dit komt?

    Groetjes Barbara

    • Hoi,

      Dankjewel voor je reactie.

      Met betrekking tot de bookmark in Firefox – je zou deze website gewoon moeten kunnen opslaan zoals je met andere websites kan doen via Firefox.
      Zo niet, misschien eventjes de WordPress FAQ controleren?

      Dankjewel, Chrisje

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